MY HEART IS NOT A CHEW TOY.
Just to let you all know.
It's already been stomped upon,
beaten,
and sewn..
The thread would keep it toghether,
until another break,
and then it would be gone,
and my life at it's take.
I am tired of being mistreated, unrespected, looked down upon, misunderstood, and inequal. I AM JUST AS GOOD AS THE POPULAR GIRL. this did indead take me many years to find out. Now i want OTHER TO KNOW IT TOO! I am tired of false words and sweet nothings. every breath that you took was a lie. What was your motive? Do you wake up in the morning and ask yourself, "How can I crush Meghan's reputation and ruin her life?" If not, I'd be amazed. I don't know who to trust anymore. I am defenetly not trusting someone based on looks, popularity, or, gender. GUYS- If you have broken me to bitterness, then I pray for you. I have lost my temper, and my life, too many times. They can iscolate you with just a glance, and make you lose everything. mentally and socially. no rebounds. no do overs. no hope.
meghan
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
SO, my computer broke. end of story.
AFTER LIKE 17 REPAIRS, and 5,000$ later, we come to the end. It's been nice knowing you. Only thing I wish was that i could get my documents back. and pictures. etc. So many songs, books, 'journals', images... oh, well. what do you do?
I have a 'pen pal.' His name is Ricky. :) It's actually kind of cool because we r on the same page with, like, everything! School, bullies, life, relationships. and most importantly, JESUS!! =D
I died my hair 'Frosted brown.' Its more like 'BURNT F'IN BLACK.' I look like a creeper. oh, well. now looks will match my personality.
People ask me why I blog. well, actually, they don't. But I came up with a good answer so lets pretend they do. ^_^
BC no one else will listen. I trust no one else. and yes, I am idiotic, putting it out on the internet, but heck. It's true. It's me. and It will always be a part of me. I am blogging rather then just saving word doc.s because I know that I won't be able to get ahold of them if something goes wrong. And, if you know me, you know that something DOES always go wrong. Way to be optimistic, ey? ;)
I'ma leave you soon. I know- you don't want me to go. (Go along with it, DONT BURST MUH BUBBLE)
OH, b4 I leave, I wanna tell u about someone. That. I. Love.
It's a guy. :) He is like.... ahhhh... just thinking about him gives me butterflies. he makes me smile when Im crying. he is always there. I know he can relate to me. I LOVE HIM.
and he is
I AM SORRY. I HAVE TO GO! NO JOKE!! BYE :)
love,
meghan
AFTER LIKE 17 REPAIRS, and 5,000$ later, we come to the end. It's been nice knowing you. Only thing I wish was that i could get my documents back. and pictures. etc. So many songs, books, 'journals', images... oh, well. what do you do?
I have a 'pen pal.' His name is Ricky. :) It's actually kind of cool because we r on the same page with, like, everything! School, bullies, life, relationships. and most importantly, JESUS!! =D
I died my hair 'Frosted brown.' Its more like 'BURNT F'IN BLACK.' I look like a creeper. oh, well. now looks will match my personality.
People ask me why I blog. well, actually, they don't. But I came up with a good answer so lets pretend they do. ^_^
BC no one else will listen. I trust no one else. and yes, I am idiotic, putting it out on the internet, but heck. It's true. It's me. and It will always be a part of me. I am blogging rather then just saving word doc.s because I know that I won't be able to get ahold of them if something goes wrong. And, if you know me, you know that something DOES always go wrong. Way to be optimistic, ey? ;)
I'ma leave you soon. I know- you don't want me to go. (Go along with it, DONT BURST MUH BUBBLE)
OH, b4 I leave, I wanna tell u about someone. That. I. Love.
It's a guy. :) He is like.... ahhhh... just thinking about him gives me butterflies. he makes me smile when Im crying. he is always there. I know he can relate to me. I LOVE HIM.
and he is
I AM SORRY. I HAVE TO GO! NO JOKE!! BYE :)
love,
meghan
WOW, i havent blogged in a while. Ima try and do this fast so excuse punciation and spelling mistakes. :) Camp was fun. Scary, fun, and life changing. IF YOU HAVENT DETICATED YOUR LIFE TO GOD DO IT. HE HAS DONE AMAZING THINGS IN MY LIFE, AND I BET HE CAN DO EVEN MORE IN YOURS. just wanted to say I LOVE YOU. all of you. even the guys... theres alot of loves. this love is just the love where i will not judge you, will not treat you diffrently,. bc the way u treated me. THE BEST DEFENCE? stand up when u fall down. Smile when you r mad. and be nice to those who r mean to you. DO UR OWN THING. the thing i wish i'd have known earlier in life? PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS HATE YOU. thats not the point of life... (to have everyone like you) WHATS IMPORTANT IS THAT U BE U. who is better qualified?
LUV U ALL
!
CHECK OUT MY FB AND TWITTER FOR UPDATES MORE OFTEN.
peace
LUV U ALL
!
CHECK OUT MY FB AND TWITTER FOR UPDATES MORE OFTEN.
peace
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Going off to camp tommorow. I am REALLY excited. I think it will be really good for me not to have internet for a week. Or phones. I am sad, though, that my friends I invited cannot come bc they cannot live w.o their technologies. arg. oh well, time to learn that I cannot change what other ppl think. Oh well. Have to go clean soon. We just stained the table out back, so we can put it on our deck and eat on it. Mom's bugging me to go clean and take a walk with her. ( double arg) oh well. Need some sun anyways.
Love,
meghan
p.s. no time to do favorites.
soorrry :'(
Love,
meghan
p.s. no time to do favorites.
soorrry :'(
Saturday, July 17, 2010
I'm kinda ticked off. @ church today and I didn't agree with a word the 'Father' told us.
One was that we need to pray to saints.
I believe that we pray to GOD and GOD only. ( I think thats putting others b4 him)
Two was that we cannot 'spread' the word of GOD bc That's for preachers to do. Ok, you can see why this is wrong already.
There was a ton of stuff that I didn't agree with, but the worst one of all was:
IF YOU KNOW JESUS AND CALL HIM YOUR KING, YOU WILL GET INTO HEAVEN.
NO! WAY! you need to work hard, not sin, etc. and TRY to worship him. praise him. Knowing your boss's name does NOT get you into a higher office.
One was that we need to pray to saints.
I believe that we pray to GOD and GOD only. ( I think thats putting others b4 him)
Two was that we cannot 'spread' the word of GOD bc That's for preachers to do. Ok, you can see why this is wrong already.
There was a ton of stuff that I didn't agree with, but the worst one of all was:
IF YOU KNOW JESUS AND CALL HIM YOUR KING, YOU WILL GET INTO HEAVEN.
NO! WAY! you need to work hard, not sin, etc. and TRY to worship him. praise him. Knowing your boss's name does NOT get you into a higher office.
इ लाइव फॉर जेसुस च्रिस्ट!
You wanna know why my blog is untitled? Because there isn't a word to describe it. Describing my blog is describing my life; it can change any second. SO watch your back. You never know when someone might flip your ground. Or shake your world. On the other hand, you never know when it may become better then you ever thought possible. The main thing that I learned here is that you will miss 100% of the shots you dont take. Ok, I will stop speaking metophorically. Or however you spell it. When you get a chance, go for it. What't the worst that can happen? Failing it? Well, thats whats gonna happen if you don't try it. Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you will be among the stars.
Ok, so thats todays goopy gushy life lesson. On to something else. My computer is broken (AGAIN!) and I have to use my sister's laptop. I mean, I don't have a problem using it, but all my documents of the book, pictures, websites, passwords- etc. are on my computer.
I'm going off to camp on the 19th... which means that I will not be able to blog. I think it will be a good tthing, though. No internet and no phones can only help, no matter how life-shattering it may seem right now.
I have came across a life-changing moment. YOU DON'T NEED MAKE-UP TO LOOK PRETTY. You don't need guys winking across the rooom to you to FEEL beautiful, either. You need yourself, God, and... well, a good hair stylist. =P I didn't wear make-up today (OH! HEAVEN FORBID-) and, yes, I didn't turn as many heads, but I wasn't afraid if my mascara was drooping, or if my eyeliner smudged.
Love,
as always,
Meghan
TOP
SOng- SOLO, jason derulo
MOvie- GRease
FOod- lefsa! :)
If I can't sing with my lungs, I'll sing with my heart <3 with my soul, with my mind. I'll sing it for you! xXx ILU JESUS!
p.s.
amanda bennes-
last time that I checked, God's last name wasn't 'dammit'
:) =) =D xXx
PEACE OUT
Ok, so thats todays goopy gushy life lesson. On to something else. My computer is broken (AGAIN!) and I have to use my sister's laptop. I mean, I don't have a problem using it, but all my documents of the book, pictures, websites, passwords- etc. are on my computer.
I'm going off to camp on the 19th... which means that I will not be able to blog. I think it will be a good tthing, though. No internet and no phones can only help, no matter how life-shattering it may seem right now.
I have came across a life-changing moment. YOU DON'T NEED MAKE-UP TO LOOK PRETTY. You don't need guys winking across the rooom to you to FEEL beautiful, either. You need yourself, God, and... well, a good hair stylist. =P I didn't wear make-up today (OH! HEAVEN FORBID-) and, yes, I didn't turn as many heads, but I wasn't afraid if my mascara was drooping, or if my eyeliner smudged.
Love,
as always,
Meghan
TOP
SOng- SOLO, jason derulo
MOvie- GRease
FOod- lefsa! :)
If I can't sing with my lungs, I'll sing with my heart <3 with my soul, with my mind. I'll sing it for you! xXx ILU JESUS!
p.s.
amanda bennes-
last time that I checked, God's last name wasn't 'dammit'
:) =) =D xXx
PEACE OUT
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